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Free to a Good Home by bitter-knitter

FIRST IMPRESSION: D'aww! My first thought? This is so. So. So adorable ohmygoshohmygoshohmygosh. But, well, I can't be sentimental when...

Freedom by double-rus

First of all, I'd like to compliment you on the absolutely beautiful manipulation you made! The water splashes and the bird, not to men...

Sandy by Fataler
by Fataler

This is a simple, cute chibi that shows obvious effort to make a sweet character, but with a little more time and work on it, than it c...

The World's Fair by aqua-ice-water-drop

I honestly quite like this, it's fairly intricate and the characters have an adequate amount of detail on them. However, to me, it feel...



raw, bleeding heart
that’s how you like to describe yourself.
or maybe it should be:
open, gaping wound

you like to think you’re emotional;
sensitive (and you are, that);
good-natured (hah);
idealistic (perhaps in the past).
let’s unpack that, shall we?

sometimes you’re not quite sure
what’s real and what’s not
your entire existence, it just –
it feels like a fantasy
an illusion
a delusion
like everything else is too much
so overwhelmingly real
and you, you aren’t.

in fact, you live your life in words
(but not the good kind)
you surround yourself with media
(you are unflinchingly honest about this)
books, movies, musicals:
you wish your life was one.

you think you’re authentic
but how can that be, if
you’re just following a script?
if you ever only expect others
to do the very same?

you want to have perfect things
you want others to be perfect
you want to be perfect.
and i, i just wish you’d get it in your head:
that’s never going to happen.

you love the idea of things
you say you’re in love with love
but you’ve never even been in love
you’re like that privileged white girl
who says she’s experienced true suffering
(but what is that, if not a mere shade of truth?)

you want to love too deeply, fiercely
but you want somebody nice
you want to change the world
but you want to be comfortably happy
you’re too intense, sometimes
but people who can catch up with you, well
they’re too often out of your league

but the thing is,
the problem isn’t him
or her
it was never him, or her, or them
it was always you
it has always been you
it will always be you
(but, whatever.
doesn’t matter)

maybe you thought you liked him;
or, to be accurate – you liked the idea of him
you liked the idea of him and you and us
because isn’t that what you always do?

sometimes you’re glad that
no matter how much you feel
(or pretend to feel)
no matter how much you think
(or try to think)
there are some little things you tuck away
like the fact that if you say you’re fine,
you probably aren’t
or that when you think you’re alone
smiling is a sign of unrestrained sadness
or that if you ask after something more than once
it means it’s been dwelling on your mind
and that means that it’s interesting
because being you also means passion
and that means never giving up on things that interest you
or that those little things
you ever so rarely tell to one person
and you thought just maybe
maybe this time it could be him-

anyway, anyway.
it’s all symptomatic of a bigger problem:
you. you, and this fear
“what is it? pray tell”
well, nobody knows better than you

you’re afraid of being fake
you say this, you say that
but to tell the truth
your life is so austenian
(isn’t that ironic?)

you love love
you exult the values of friendship whilst
bemoaning the commonality of romance
yet you, you.

you look for somebody
not to l o v e
just to ———— like.
whatever for?

for all you say
and all you claim
you’re a lying hypocrite
and, in the end
you’re just human

well, anyway.
you just don’t want to be (not after everything)
stuck (despite trying your best)
involuntarily, (it still wasn't good enough)
by yourself (again)

because, face it:
you’re scared that
despite everything you’ve said,
friendship isn’t enough to sustain you

so that’s that.
you don’t want to be alone.
you don’t want to lie.
you don’t want to be loveless.

maybe it’s the human condition
but the more i live life
and the more i observe others
the more i think:
“no, it’s just a ‘you’ condition”
just finished sbj's tef/mth. holy hell i need to get into the ppg fandom.
Jade Harley Vector by starmz123
Jade Harley Vector
she's cosplaying as wendy corduroy (Summerween) from gravity falls!
credit to my friend immoroita for her original sketch!

resources used:
HERE is the link to :iconwatersoup:WaterSoup's free giveaway which includes 10,000 points to be distributed across 13 winners as well as art. <: So go check it out and join!


starmz123 has started a donation pool!
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Alrighty - to incite people a little, here's a run-down of what I'm willing to do if you donate (obviously these are all optional - please message me if you want something!) c:

For 5 points: One text banner
For 10 points: One graphic of your choice
For 15 points: Two graphics (this means any kind of 'digital' photo manipulation) OR a quick sketch under 30 minutes
For 20 points: Three graphics OR a drawing that takes less than an hour and a one-shot/poem, OR a dA journal entry template (NEW!)
For 35 points: A short story that is three-to-five chapters maximum (depending on the complexity and general concept[s]) OR five graphics
For 50 points: A full-length story OR a character design and free graphics for a week
For 100 points: I will be your creative 'slave' for a month (this includes graphics, HTML/BB-code coding (I can do tables/'templates' though I need to see what kind of coding your site uses), drawings and written art) - however, this slot can only be taken by one person at a time and you must be reasonable(':

If you wish, you can give me a time limit. However, please note that I am fairly busy as a diligent student and I do have a 'life', as people like to say. Also, everything will be under my terms as I am the artist (as in, how long I take to complete it, though if I take too long I will start to discuss things with you).

I do try my best to complete things ASAP, but my muse fluctuates often. n___n

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Pizaru-Chu Featured By Owner May 30, 2015
Hello hello! Thanks for the watch! I'm glad you like my stuffs..!
Silverdragon04 Featured By Owner May 29, 2015
Thanks for the Watch :)
JamToon Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hey, hello! Uh... thank you very much for watching, this always
helps me a lot. And sorry for commenting in your profile.

Would you like to be in a vegetable duel with me?
starmz123 Featured By Owner May 17, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh, no, it's fine! I have nothing against comments on my profile. c: It's nice that you went to the effort of doing so, actually.

I would definitely, if I knew what it was!
JamToon Featured By Owner May 17, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Effort, there is no effort in commenting, I guess.
Oh, it's basically a fight with vege- Oh, forget it, haha!
xDelu Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2014  Student
Thanks so much for the watch! And good luck on the raffle!!
Coby17 Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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Gemi-chan Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the fav! :hug:
DylanSeto Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2014  Student Artist

Just wanted to thank you for the fave!

Also, since I'm currently focusing on music, I was wondering if you'd be interested in supporting me in that endeavor of mine?

If you are, I can link you to where you can find that stuff!
starmz123 Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh? Certainly! What kind of music do you make?
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