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Free to a Good Home by bitter-knitter

FIRST IMPRESSION: D'aww! My first thought? This is so. So. So adorable ohmygoshohmygoshohmygosh. But, well, I can't be sentimental when...

Freedom by double-rus

First of all, I'd like to compliment you on the absolutely beautiful manipulation you made! The water splashes and the bird, not to men...

Sandy by Fataler
by Fataler

This is a simple, cute chibi that shows obvious effort to make a sweet character, but with a little more time and work on it, than it c...

The World's Fair by aqua-ice-water-drop

I honestly quite like this, it's fairly intricate and the characters have an adequate amount of detail on them. However, to me, it feel...

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i once told him,
"you know, you're my
sounding board."

how could he have known,
that that meant i
would become dependent on him?

how could he have known,
that it meant dealing with
the emotional mess called me?

i once told him,
"you know, i think
we should stop talking."

how could he have known,
that it killed me inside
to force myself not to click his name?

how could he have known,
that without his words,
every day felt empty?

and how could he have known
that my self-inflicted healing
would have me turn to words for therapy?
a long time ago,
she once asked,
"you would give me up
for the stars?"

how could i explain,
that i would do it in a heartbeat,
because at least the stars
looked as lonely as i

i think i should feel guilty
for occasionally thinking
that perhaps moving away
wouldn't be such a bad thing after all

how could i explain,
that despite being able
to frequent many groups,
nobody made me feel wanted?

i think i should feel guilty
for believing that things would get better
because perhaps i'd just be cliched and
lock myself inside the toilet at lunch

but then i would remember
that that isn't so different
from what i do here,
anyway.

i think i should feel guilty
for wanting a clean slate
because maybe i alienate everyone eventually
and it's easier to run away

and because maybe
i want to start over
instead of figuring out why
the common factor is always me

how could i explain
that if i left
all my goodbyes would be said for me,
in one fell swoop

and finally,
i should feel guilty,
for ever wanting to begin again
like some sort of sims character

but instead,
if i'm honest,
all i feel
is relief
conscience
"the worst thing in life is ending up with people who make you feel all alone."
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you trail bruises across my clavicle
as you whisper sweet nothings
i apologise to you, thinking
that my skin is just too soft

you brush my hair away from my face
and lean down to touch my forehead
i smile at you and laugh,
knowing you only mean well

you hug me until i can't breathe
as i cry into your shoulder
you say that you understand
and you'll try to change

i kiss you long and hard
and try to memorise your features
it's only when i start to dissolve away
that i think

    maybe this wasn't such a good idea.
she toils on her labour of love
unconsciously putting pieces of herself in it
cutting her heart open and
exposing its vulnerability

all the while,
she meticulously prepares
a birthday gift
personalised not for them, but by her

then, the day before the giving
they ring her up to say
'why don't you give this to me
in public?'

and she protests
without really knowing why
except that it feels
strangely, ridiculously wrong

then she realises,
oh of course.
she'd put too much of herself
in this gift.

so she packs away
her vulnerability
her little notes
herself

she strips herself from the gift
and becomes fully content
with giving this soulless,
heartless object

one day hoping
for the impossible eventuality
that someone would be okay
with her vulnerability
sometimes i wonder if
i merely enjoy my own suffering
or if i rather wickedly
enjoy my own misery

because sometimes
in the shower
i sit down and
enjoy the free-flowing water

perhaps i find it cathartic
or maybe i just want to
freeze
time

it could be that
i'm just too emotional
and it's nice to not be mercurial
but rather, to stay in one state

then again, maybe something's wrong
after all, enjoying sadness?
that sounds like a symptom
that should be diagnosed

and after all this thinking
and self-reflection
i fluff my pillows
and lie back down

but then all i do
is wrap myself up
in my blanket of tears
and snuggle back into oblivion
melancholy
i may or may not simply be using these to make myself feel better
whoops.
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Alrighty - to incite people a little, here's a run-down of what I'm willing to do if you donate (obviously these are all optional) c:

For 5 points: One text banner
For 10 points: One graphic of your choice
For 15 points: Two graphics (this means any kind of 'digital' photo manipulation) and a quick sketch under 30 minutes
For 20 points: Three graphics, a drawing that takes less than an hour and a one-shot/poem
For 35 points: A short story that is three-to-five chapters maximum (depending on the complexity and general concept[s]), and five graphics
For 50 points: A full-length story, a character design and free graphics for a week
For 100 points: I will be your creative 'slave' for a month (this includes graphics, HTML/BB-code coding (I can do tables/'templates' though I need to see what kind of coding your site uses), drawings and written art) - however, this slot can only be taken by one person at a time and you must be reasonable(':

If you wish, you can give me a time limit. However, please note that I am fairly busy as a diligent student and I do have a 'life', as people like to say. Also, everything will be under my terms as I am the artist (as in, how long I take to complete it, though if I take too long I will start to discuss things with you) I do try my best to complete things ASAP, but my muse fluctuates often. ^w^

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Deluuu Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Student
Thanks so much for the watch! And good luck on the raffle!!
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Coby17 Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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Gemi-chan Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the fav! :hug:
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xxdraxx Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2014  Student Artist
Hey~~

Just wanted to thank you for the fave!

Also, since I'm currently focusing on music, I was wondering if you'd be interested in supporting me in that endeavor of mine?

If you are, I can link you to where you can find that stuff!
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starmz123 Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh? Certainly! What kind of music do you make?
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xxdraxx Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2014  Student Artist
Judge for yourself:

Here: youtu.be/8Q0ezoJyfdY
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starmz123 Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey! Sorry for the late reply. I listened and it's definitely a good start. It's obviously very amateurish, but that's fine - everyone has to start somewhere!

I'm not quite sold on the rap parts ... perhaps it's the transitions, but they really don't mesh well with the rest of the song. I don't think you should discard them, but, well, food for thought. Perhaps make another song out of them? Or, rework the musical parts (as they're on about a 1:2 ratio with the rap) to better flow. Additionally, you need to enunciate clearer (especially when rapping) and your pitch can be quite off at times. But, practice makes better, so keep going!

The lyrics get better near the end, but they're hardly the most important part for a burgeoning artist. For now, work on strengthening the music, flow and vocals - then, everything else should come naturally. c:
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Lollipop-Master Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2014  Student General Artist
Thank your for the fav!
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Milk-and-Pie Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much for the fav on Don't Fall In Love With A Writer, I really really appreciate it!! :iconlazypoolplz:

So sorry for the late thanks :iconrazycryplz:
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starmz123 Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Aw, it was no problem! I enjoyed it a lot.

You did a great job, and inspired me to write a little more. That's awesome, if I don't say so myself!
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